Mom On The Run

Sierra has decided that sleep is over rated. She’d much rather spend ½ the night laying in bed crying for us to come and cuddle with her. Unfortunately this is totally unacceptable, especially now that I’m back at work. Don’t get me wrong – I love cuddling with her – just as long as it’s during daylight. This morning I was at my wits end – totally peeved. I’m not really mad at her, I’m more mad at myself. For some inexplicable reason, I feel that somehow her lack of night sleeping is my fault, like I’ve failed in teaching her how to sleep. I’m this horrible mother with a sleep deprived baby. I also feel guilty for going back to work, and often think the night waking is her way of getting some attention from me that she’s missing during the day. I also feel a huge responsibility towards her and feel that no one else can console her or meet her needs as well as I can. Because of this I feel that I can never go anywhere without her. So instead of resuming my life (running, softball, girl’s nights out etc…) I spend every spare minute at home even when she’s sleeping, just in case she wakes up and needs me to console her. Cosmo Dad was trying to console me and encourage me to go scrapbooking with my neighbour tonight and this is what he came up with:

Well you know honey, our primary objective is to make sure she stays alive. We’re doing a good job at that.

LOL! You know, he’s got a valid point. I work so hard making everything perfect for her, that I lose perspective. She’s a very happy healthy little girl despite her freak of a mother. Now I’m off to go scrapbooking!

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First off I’ll apologize ahead of time for the formatting of this post. =
I think I’ve gotten everything figured out and set up so I can post via e=
mail, with the exception of formatting, and getting the “Subscriber2″ plu=
gin to work with “wp-mail.php”. I’ll be implementing a plug-in tonight th=
at’ll remove that pesky email signature. I promise to keep updating, onl=
y I’d rather not log into www.cosmog=
rrl.com from work ’cause of my past experiences. I’ve taken the time=
to block my work’s IP address, even though WebSense blocks out the site.=
I’ve discovered that there is indeed a work around the WebSense blockin=
g. On blocked sites we can use up to an hour of “quota time” for persona=
l website surfing if we click a button.=20 I think that’s rather generous, kind and diplomatic, though I don’t rea=
lly want my work tracking the sites that I visit. =20

That said, things at work are going really well. My job responsibilities=
are a bit junior to what I was doing before and the pay is a bit less, b=
ut having a 7 minute commute to work is a nice trade-off. You can’t real=
ly put a price on time, especially with a wee one. I love my co-workers =
and I can’t foresee any major personality conflicts (unlike jobs in the p=
ast ). The only thing I don’t like is the fact that I sit at a c=
ounter near the main entrance. As people walk into the building they wal=
k right past the information counter and straight to me. Great – ask all=
your freaky questions to the new girl. I swear, like in the past, only =
the weirdos walk past information to me. You should hear the things they=
complain about! I smile, nod and listen to them, then tell them they have to go to the information desk to fi=
nd out who they should complain to. Thankfully it’s not my job to actual=
ly follow up on the weirdos. =20

Alrightie – I’ve rambled on long enough. Hopefully this post will show u=
p Comment and let me know if it does, ok?
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You find incredibly odd things in your purse. Today I reached into the bottomless pit otherwise known as my purse to find my wallet and found:

A golf ball
Golf tees
A Ziploc bag full of Cheerios
A bottle lid
A breast pump
A diaper (I was relieved when I realized that it was a clean one)
Several baby toys
A belt for my jacket
An apple

And yep, no wallet! I’m all set to bring Sierra along for a round of golf, just so long as it’s free.

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Google Reader that is (and well – my new job too). I spent an hour setting up my favourite MUST read blogs over the weekend and yesterday it paid off! I was able to flip through quickly a few times during the work day to get caught up on all of you. I starred posts so that I could surf over and comment tonight. Now, there’s one thing… Some of you still have your blog settings set to “Excerpt” – could you change that please? I found myself wanting to read more but couldn’t

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I promise to figure out a way to be a better blogger. Stupid %$@#%#$ WebSense! I’m blocked from just about EVERYTHING! We also have a limit on the amount of “personal” time we can spend perusing the web. Apparently, if we spend more than an hour n on the web a message pops up on our screen saying something about exceeding our quota. I haven’t tested it out. I’m too new here and it isn’t worth risking this kick butt job for. The one site that I’m the most upset about having blocked from viewing is Flikr – Cosmo Daddy surfs over there several times a day to see his beautiful daughter as it reminds him of why he’s working his butt off. I tried a few days ago and BLAH! Stopped by WebSense – grrrr! So much for using it as motivation! So instead I brought in a memory stick full of photos.

That said, I have 2 jobs for you…

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All my mommy friends complain about it – but I thought I had somehow managed to escape it. I thought that maybe I was getting a break for good behaviour. But nope – today it hit me. Mommy brain, CRS (Can’t Remember Shit) or whatever you want to call it. I found myself putting sticky notes on everything today. I even put a sticky on a folder with the following written on it:

“Why is this on my desk?”

Can you believe it? I had to put a sticky on a strange folder to remind me to ask someone why it was on my desk! Otherwise I would forget to ask about the strange folder. Adjusting to the corporate world is tough – especially tough when starting a new job. There are so many things to remember! For instance where my desk is, my co-workers names, how to use the photocopier, where the washrooms are, where to find office supplies, my extension, email address etc… Jeez – I even find myself having to look up what my job title is!

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