January 28th, 2010
by Janice
I thought I could do it. I thought this solo-parenting stint would be different. I thought I could keep the clouds and fog from rolling in. I developed a network of running buddies. I would get out to run on my lunches. I planned out healthy meals – I prepared them a week ahead of time & froze them so I wouldn’t have to cook. Or be stressed. Or eat unhealthy depression causing processed foods. I gave up coffee – also known to cause depression. I planned fun family outings:
Sun – fun swim
Mon – swimming lessons
Tues – stay home & Skype daddy (hubby)
Wed – McDonald’s playland, Skype daddy
Thurs – fun swim? Skype daddy?
Fri – Dinner with Oma & Opa
Sat – indoor playground? relax, clean up the tornado of solo-parenting aftermath, wait for daddy
I really really thought I could do this. I followed my plan. I got out to run. I ate healthy.
But an email came that shook my foundation, my strength, my courage and self-confidence. “Honey, I’ll be home next week, but the week after I have to go away again.” I crumbled into tears. When will this end? How can I continue to be strong? When can we be a family again? Will it ever happen? Am I waiting for a ship that will never set sail?
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January 24th, 2010
by Janice
This blog has typically been my place to vent, to whine and complain about life. I come and go based on how happy I am in my life, which is why I haven’t written much here lately. These days I’ve been a happy, happy girl!
I wish I could say I was happy because I won the lottery, quit my job and now live in a mansion with my own housekeepers, cook and personal trainer, but sadly that hasn’t happened. Quite the opposite actually. I’m happy because I’ve decided to take control of my life – training for a half marathon and learning how to cook.
The half-marathon training has been going incredibly well. I’m getting faster and my long runs are getting easier. I’ve also lost 3lbs (maybe more because I haven’t weighed myself in a week). I’m only 3 weeks into my 19 week training plan, but so far it’s been ging well. I’ve even found a group of runners at work to run with on my lunch hour. I love the new companionship and I’m looking forward to having that support when ever hubby travels (ie: next week when he’s in Ireland).
This year I’m also learning how to cook (by trial and error). I don’t really have a lot of time to cook, so my “cooking” really means cutting stuff up, and throwing it in a slow cooker with some spices and water to create an amazingly tastey meal that’s also nutritious. NUTRITIOUS! I’m trying to eat less processed foods this year. The amount of sh*t in processed food stuff is disgusting! And the things they do to the animals we eat is atrocious! It’s nasty to think we’re eating all of those hormones and antibiotics – yuck! I’m reading Skinny Bitch and it’s scared me off of coffee, junk food, and soda. It’s also doing a good job of making me consider becoming vegan – my pal Cheaty is happy about that. Truthfully the book should be renamed Healthy Bitch because I feel you should be eating well to be healthy not skinny. Healthy Bitch propably wouldn’t sell as many copies as a book titled Skinny Bitch.
Now because I’m happy, running, and eating healthy doesn’t mean I haven’t been blogging – quite the opposite actually. I’ve been writing a TON… just not here. I’ve been fitness blogging over at The Fitness Cheerleader (I renamed Lazy Mama Fitness because the site name really sucked a$$). I’m having a blast writing about something I’m passionate about – health and fitness. It’s amazing how naturally that comes to me and how quickly I can whip up a post compared to here where I struggle to put my thoughts into typed written words. I’ve written over there almost every day and if you’re interested in checking out the recipes I’ve tried I urge you to come by and visit, yanno say “Hi”.
I’ve rather missed y’all and I really should stop by and comment on your blogs, though I want to tell you that I have been reading all of your posts in an email that I get from FeedBlitz that combines all of your RSS feeds into a daily newsletter of posts, I just haven’t stopped by and left comments.
Have a great day guys!
All the best,
Janice
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January 8th, 2010
by Janice
Exercise is great for metabolism right? Well so is all that bouncing around my internal organs do when I run. I go through phases – some months I run a lot, and some months the comfort and warmth of my couch or the cool water of my pool is more appealing. Generally I run more in the Spring and the Fall when there’s nothing else to do. But so far this winter has been very mild and I’ve been running a lot more. With all of the extra running I’ve found that I’m pooping a heck of a lot more and the act of pooping is a lot easier. Now aren’t you glad I shared that with you?
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January 7th, 2010
by Janice
My goodness! What a difference a week makes! Now that I’ve fully recovered from my cracked ribs from my fall, I’m back running regularly again. I’m amazed at what a difference being active is making on my outlook on life. Weren’t my posts from October, November and December so depressing? Holy crap! I was such a downer – no wonder no one called me, no one else wanted to be brought down! But I’m back now!
Work is busy – it’s so awesome! I love being busy, setting To Do lists, and game plans to accomplish all of my work. My running is really helping with my feelings of being alert too. My body is in pain (delayed onset muscle soreness – DOMS), but I like to think of it as the pain of fat melting away. A gentle pain is good – it tells me my workouts have been hard enough to illicit an adaptive response. The running has motivated me to eat better too – recovering from my workouts is so hard without the right fuel – I can tell when I haven’t eaten well enough, or rested enough by my running pace. And my house… is cleaner! I have more energy and motivation to clean! The surprising part is that planning and preparation actually leaves me with MORE computer time. I love my evening computer time – with the exception of Glee, I don’t watch TV. I hate sports announcers yelling at me, whiny families mis-treating each other, reality shows have lost their appeal… The list goes on. My favourite shows were the reality shows that had people preparing for an athletic event – the trials and tribulations of training – something I can totally relate to and I haven’t come across too many of them lately.
So I’m starting my own little virtual reality show…. I’m going to be coaching a virtual “Learn-to-Run” program. My intended audience and participants are the Mamavation Moms from www.bookieboo.com but I’ll set it up so you can also follow along through my health and fitness blog www.lazymama.com if you so choose. I haven’t decided if it’s best run as an email newsletter to participants, or as a forum, a combo of both or what. Maybe a Learn-to-Run Ning community? I dunno – I want to find a way to implement it that really minimizes the technical work required to run it, freeing up time to spend motivating and educating. I have to research the technical side of things before I set it all up. Basically I want to inspire people and since I love running, and know running and have a Kinesiology degree, what better way is there for me to inspire? I love the enthusiasm of beginner runners – watching their surprise as they learn what their bodies are capable of doing. It’s amazing! Watching Chelle discover running last year was really inspiring. In her words… Woot! Woot!
So yeah – that’s what’s going on with me…
In other news: My mom is doing WAY better! She’s still in the hospital but is out of critical care and is now in a ward. She called me from her cell phone that my dad had brought in to her. Apparently they don’t have patient phones? I think my dad is just too cheap to pay for the patient phone 
He didn’t want to pay $0.50 to leave a message on my voicemail from the payphone when my mom was admitted, and instead had my Aunt call me. LOL! This apple hasn’t fallen far from the tree… Anyways – my mom and I had a good conversation but she had to stop to catch her breath a few times. Pneumonia is NASTY! But in a way it’s been good because she hasn’t had a cigarette since Friday and she’s even talking about quitting smoking!! Which is awesome and I totally support her. After seeing her on Sunday I truly believe that the Lord didn’t give her a warning, he gave her a second chance. I really want to support her in any lifestyle changes she decides to make as a result of all of this.
Gosh – I don’t know how to conclude this post – conclusions and closures are always something I have a hard time with. I hate sayign goodbye at parties – I often just leave. Not because I don’t want to wish my friends well – it just seems so pessimistic, here’s a hug goodbye in case I never see you again… I don’t like saying goodbye – that’s what funerals are for. So don’t look for good conlusions and closures on posts, ‘cause you won’t find them J
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January 6th, 2010
by Janice
I’ve had a lot of time to reflect back on last year through my blog posts and sadly, not many good things happened, except for my awesome new job. Love, love, love!! It’s such a perfect fit for me! I could list all the bad things that happened in 2009, but that’s not what I want 2010 to be about.
This year I’m going to be positive and focus on the positive. I want to plan out my days to reduce stress and avoid rushing through everything at the last minute, I want to get enough sleep, eat healthy, be active and live in the moment. I’ve already started making those changes:
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I’m a
www.mamavation.com cheerleader – yeah me! Cheering and supporting all of the ladies in their weight loss efforts. ‘Cause I’m just oh-so-positive and chipper lately… The girls I’ve met are incredibly awesome and have even inspired me! Cheering them on and helping them reach their weightloss goals has really helped my self-esteem. I feel good and proud that I’m now using my Kinesiology degree for something.
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I’m training for a half-marathon! Woot! I’ve ran 17km over the past 4 days!!! The Half-marathon is the Mississauga Half-Marathon on May 16, 2010. I can’t wait!
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I’m packing lunches right after putting the kids to bed, and planning out our dinners with Google calendar. I’m oing to try and take the stress out of my life by planning ahead, grocery shopping Friday nights and hopefully avoiding fast food.
I’m sick of being an emotional train-wreck. I’m sick of feeling down and unmotivated – this year I’m making a big effort to be happy, healthy and stress-free.
So ummm.. yeah – that’s about all I had to say. I’m going to take my shower now (I stink from my 7K run), then lay out tomorrow’s clothes and head to bed. Good night!
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