I found it! Do I get a prize? It was in my bathtubâ€¦ 😯 I filled up the tub, dumped in a ton of bubble bath, waited until the tub was full, then slipped in. When I looked toward the foot of the bath there it was â€“ sticking 5 inches out of the water â€“ the lost continent of Atlantis! Oh waitâ€¦ that was just my tummy. *Sigh* Donâ€™t laugh â€“ my belly was freaking freezing!
!@(25weeksside.jpg popimg: “25 Weeks – Side View”)Tonight I went out on a “Girls Night Out”, and being the only prego of the group, I wanted to prove that I still got it going on. You know, still a hot little number, afterall some guy tried to pick me up at work this morning (so what if I was wearing a huge jacket and he probably couldn’t tell that I’m pregnant). So I pulled out a slinky, shiny, little black “going out” shirt with a panel in the front that I knew would totally be accomodating enough for my tummy….
!@(25weeks.jpg popimg: “25 Weeks -Front View”) Ummm yeah – have you clicked on those images for a good look see? I even grossed myself out! That shirt is totally not happening! 😆 Needless to say I chose a nice comfortable maternity shirt instead What the hell was I thinking?
I think I just faced my biggest fear EVER today. Or at least registered myself to face it. Yep, today I registered myself at the hospital where I’m going to deliver Cosmo Baby in 15 weeks from now…. GACK! The baby has to come out? This is suddenly a reality for me. Pregnancy I can handle, running a personal worst I can handle, labour I can handle – but motherhood? Oy! I don’t think that I thought this through enough! Can I turn back now?
I know it’s a bit late to turn back time – but it never seemed so real and inevitable until this afternoon. I know what you’re thinking – dumb blonde… I know I’ll get through it – I get through everything life throws at me – but this? This is suddenly scaring the shit outta me. Not because I don’t think I can do it, but because I want to do a damn good job at it. Oh I hope I can be as good a mom as my mom was.
Does anyone have any good parenting tips to share with me? I’d love to hear them – maybe it’ll help to put my mind at ease…