But instead I’m on my laptop surfing the ‘net. Why I wonder – why am I procrastinating? I have this awesome chance to have 3 days of peace. 3 days to spend reconnecting with my hubby. A 3 day vacation in NEW YORK CITY that we are getting for free! And yet I’m procrastinating.
I’m scared – the thought of leaving the two wonderful little girls sleeping soundly in the bedrooms adjacent to me makes me absolutely, incredibly sick to my stomach. I feel like I’m going to throw up – literally. The thought of going to bed tomorrow night, and the next 2 nights after that without getting their sweet little hugs is unbearable. I know they’ll be fine without me. I know that they will have the same moments of sadness as they would probably have with me here – but I’m still worried. I want to be there to hug them and care for them. I love them so so so so much – that being away from them kills me. It rips my heart right out!
You all have told me to go, have fun, they’ll be ok etc… So I’m going to listen to you – I’m going to muster up all the strength that I have and shut this here ‘puter right off and go and pack. (But first I have to sneak into their rooms, place a kiss on my finger tips and then transfer that kiss to their foreheads with my hand 😉 ). Goodnight!