Maybe Blogging About It Will Make It Seem Real

Folks I have some breaking news for you….

I’m pregnant.

Yes – this’ll be baby #3. Yes – we’re insane. Yes, I’ve been slow to tell you because basically I’ve been in denial.

You know why I haven’t told you? It’s because I’m scared.

I’m scared of postpartum depression. I feel like I *just* recovered from the last baby, even though she’s turning three years old in a month. I’m so scared of the grey cloudy fog in my head, that I didn’t really tell anyone. We told my parents on Mother’s Day and hubby’s parents the weekend after. I told work last week only because they figured it out on their own and a certain individual pressured me into telling.

I’m so not into this pregnancy thing. ‘Cause I also hate the attention it brings. I hate people judging everything I eat and do. I hate people telling me I shouldn’t run, or questioning whether I should be exercising. And most of all I hate the attention it brings. It embarrasses me.

Yeah, yeah – I have a blog so you would think I’d be a “look at me” kind of person – but truthfully in real life I’m not really. Take for instance 2 months ago when I ran the kick ass 5K in 25:26 – I didn’t tell a single soul at work about it.

Anyways – now my “secret” is out. I’m 17 weeks pregnant and due Remembrance day (should be easy to remember, right?). Baby will probably make a fast entrance prior to then because Sierra was 4 weeks early and born in 5 hours, and Brooke was 2 weeks early and born in 3.5 hours.

Here’s my baby “bump”:

(It kind of looks more like I’m super bloated, and if you block out the belly you can’t even tell).

10 thoughts on “Maybe Blogging About It Will Make It Seem Real

  1. Congrats! I know what you mean about pregnancy though. Hated it! And PPD. Totally sucks. But the photo is cute. And you’re smiling. That’s a good sign. :)
    .-= Star´s last blog ..The Calm =-.

  2. You look fabulous! I have a bigger belly than that and I’m not pregnant. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    In my feed reader, the pics were huge. You look even smaller over here.

    Congratulations! I can’t relate to ppd, thank goodness, but I hear it’s not always the same so I hope you don’t get it or at least to a lesser degree this time.
    .-= nicole @ much more than a mom´s last blog ..Water =-.

  3. Congrats… having a third is kinda scary. I wanted a third…but got pregnant unexpectedly way sooner than I planned. My SIL had a very unexpected 4th last year. Her dr said it was ok to not be happy about the pregnancy (and she wasn’t at all) as long as she loved the baby. Thought that was interesting, and probably good advice. Rock on with your running and exercise! Be proud that you are still doing it. (You look great by the way!)

  4. Congrats. I have found my two boys to very challenging, but I’ve never regretted a second of it. They’re a lot of fun, even when they don’t always do what I want them to.
    Mind you, I did get the snip a few weeks back to ensure that there wouldn’t be a number three in my home. I’m at my limit, but kudos to you, you’re obviously stronger than I am!

  5. Congrats on #3. I can TOTALLY relate to your story, though I just found your blog today. I have a 14 week old son, had postpartum depression AND love to run. You’ll pull through don’t worry. When you’re in the thick of it, it’s overwhelming but you can do it! And don’t worry what other people thing or say. I had to stop running because I was too sick and then got horrible sciatica and every time I mentioned how bummed I was about it, people would look at me like I had 3 heads. You know your body and what you can handle.

    Congrats again, I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes well. And don’t worry…you can share your running stories with us :)

  6. Congratulations to both of you! Are Brooke and Sierra ready to big big sisters? Anyone that starts telling you what you should and shouldn’t do you can offer thm your OB’s phone number and tell them he/she is well aware of your diet and activiity and that he/she is taking exellent care of you and the baby.

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